Jealousy
Feb 3rd, 2008 by Alvin Chong
Every now and then, I will get jealous. Sometimes, it’s over something huge and sometimes it’s over small matters. I know I shouldn’t get jealous over small petty little stuff but sometimes I just can’t help it.
I probably wouldn’t get jealous had I gotten more attention. I mean how’d you feel if your girl would rather chat with someone online than to have a proper talk with you on the phone when you call? How would you feel when your girl sings praises about every other people but you?
Yes, sometimes, I probably creep in at the wrong time, but hey, I just called to talk but instead of talking, I get silence and a ya? Huh? Wait arr… every now and then. It gets boring after a while and it makes you feel like an idiot. Yes, there is probably something more important to finish up and that is understandable. However, if it is because you’re chatting with someone and you make me wait for a whole 5 minutes on the phone for you to finish chatting, that is just wrong.
Is it because we are together that we are taken for granted? I don’t know. It seems if it was her best friend or whoever calling, she would have probably stopped her chat almost immediately just to talk on the phone and then resume chatting later on. When it comes to their significant other half, they seem to don’t feel the same. Probably because of the fact that their significant other calls more often and hence, is less important. If that is the case, I shall then rest my case. I have nothing more to say.
Also, when it comes to talking about anything, almost everyone gets praised except for you. Why? I do admit I sometimes do that as well, for not giving my girl due credit for certain things. However, I do give her the assurance that she is the best regardless. What do I get? I hear praises about everyone and I don’t get any assurance from her. Sometimes, even the simple 3 words are hard to come by.
Yes, yes, you don’t have to say the 3 words. Love is based on mutual trust. I learned my lesson already. Otherwise, I will be accused of being clingy and insecure again. Anyway, this is just how I feel at times and is in no way trying to accuse my girl for being useless. My girl is one of a kind, or shall I say special, and she does love me a lot. Like I said, this is just how I feel at times but despite all that, I love my girl a lot and she knows that too. Everyone has their own weaknesses and I too have my fair share of weaknesses.
Therefore, before anyone of you start flaming me, do know that this is more of an opinionated post to share how I randomly feel at times and not meant as a bashing post. Also note that I do not feel this everytime. It is just that, I suddenly came to think about it, and hence blog about it.
Brrrr~~~~ Stop with all the ramblings and mushiness can or not? What about me?!!! ME ME ME !!! I SINGLE U KNOW!!!!
Goddamnit.
come on… not again…
the last thing you ever wanna do is to bad mouth someone you love over the net… no matter how you say it, how you put it, you’re just writing bad things about her and there is no way to justify what you did.. don’t regret.. ok?
Nicole: I am under the impression that you can be attached at anytime you wanted to.
fookiat: Come on… not again… I just cannot seem to understand here. I know where you are getting at here and I can understand why you are being utterly defensive without having known the situation better.
No matter how I say it, no matter how I put it, to you, I will always be writing bad things about her. I don’t know if you can understand my English above. Either my English is really out of this world or you just don’t get it.
I am going to say this again, sure I feel like this at time and of course it is caused by my girl. I sometimes do hurt her as well. Then again, do you realize this is a part and parcel of a relationship? If you would have noticed as well, I didn’t want anyone to misunderstand me and that is why I have stated very clearly at the end that this is not a bashing post.
For all you know, I don’t mean she is at fault here. It could be that I am just too sensitive and hence feel this way. Fookiat, if you think that I have to think and act like you in a relationship, you are dead wrong. I am not you and my girl is not your girl. We are all different in real life. If you still think I am bad mouthing my girl, if you think I am not entitled to my own feelings, if you think I should act and say like you would, please think through again. My girl and I do not go through life like you and your girl do.
If you are telling me that you hadn’t been in any conflicts with your girl, then you are either lying or you have a very big, open heart. Again, this is a post sharing my feelings at times and I will again reiterate, I did not say anyone was wrong here but rather what was ticking me in this kinda way.
Whatever you wanna think is totally up to you. Most importantly, I have talked it out with my girl and we know where we stand in our relationship. We treat this post like a relationship issue post and nothing personal.
Chill for a while, lean back and just enjoy the melody. That’s what I always do. I mean yeah, relationships sometimes hit high and low notes. Normal la. We all have been there. Not easy maintaining a relationship but then that’s the beauty part of it. It is where both worlds come together and try to deal with - comes whatever may la.
Since you said this is just a normal relationship issue so I treat it like a relationships issues post la. no big deal hor ..
Cheers!
er, i used to get that kind of complains before.. and i responded the same way like your girl did, quoting along the lines - insecure, clingy, etc. er, i didn’t know guys care so much about attentions, talking on the phones, spending time together, receiving praises. most of the time you only hear it from girls. guess men and women are not that different afterall heh?
p/s: i’m a guy.
So based on Bongkersz’s comment, you are the girl in the relationship and your girl is the guy in the relationship lor, right????? Rriiiiiigghhhtt??????? *lari kuat kuat*
P/S : I’m a guy .. duh!
but really, like bongkersz said .. usually the opposite happens. most of the time. this is a very rare case.