Alvin’s Weblog

I am having a great time in Kuching but they say, all good things must come to an end. Yes, a part of it has ended today. My dear had just departed from Kuching not too long ago, back to where ever she should be going. I hate it whenever this happens. I have never liked the feeling of separation and never will.

I always get this nostalgic feeling whenever someone I love leaves me, be it my family member or anyone else dear to me. This one was especially hard because we spent quality time together and went to places together. Thinking of it now makes me feel blue. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed my time with her, it’s just that I now miss the time we spent together. Thanks to my work nature, I was also literally cursing everyday, since day one she was here.

I get nostalgic even before the day of departure. The day of departure itself is hard. I have not much of a mood left in me to enjoy myself. The thought of having to be separated in a matter of hours just gets to me. The airport itself looks nice and enticing if I am just there for the fun of it or if I know I am on my way for a vacation. When it comes to sending people off, the view of the airport itself is just depressing.

As I carried her luggage to the check in counter, all I could think of was to get her checked in first, since it was running a lil late. Thank god, the process was a breeze. Oh, and the airport smelt of salted fish. Now, which smart alec brought salted fish to the airport or was someone smelling like salted fish? HMMMM…

Not wanting anymore of that smell, we proceeded to Eraman for some fresh perfume smell. Yeap, definitely smelt better. She wanted to check on the Ralph Lauren perfume and the sales lady was a bitch.

“Come come, I’ll do it for you, you’ll spoil the spray nozzle later…”

Bitch, I have been using perfume all my life and the nozzles are all the same. You don’t tell me I’ll spoil the nozzle. I’ll slap the living daylight out of you if I could. For the sake of courtesy, I shall not curse in this post but that bitch is really getting on my nerves. The moment she said that, I left the shop immediately.

We lingered around the airport a little, quite reluctant to be separated. I had a lot of things to tell her, but I just couldn’t find words for them. I was practically quiet the few minutes we were lingering at the airport. All I could do was look at her and said how fast time passed and how everything had come to an end so fast.

The I saw the aircraft landing and it was a sign that she should be boarding. Still reluctant to be separated, we sticked around a while longer until the aircraft was parked at the tarmac. After that, as reluctant as I was, I told her it was time to board as I didn’t want her to miss her flight.

I walked her to the departure hall and I gave her a long, tight hug. I was beginning to feel really emotional. I bid her Bon Voyage. I saw her eyes getting teary and my heart was starting to cry as well. I felt very heavy hearted as I looked into her eyes. Trying to remain calm and macho, I refrained from dropping even a single drop of tears. I waved her good bye as she went through the security check and disappeared into the hall. I won’t deny the fact that I felt very emotional the moment she left me, because that would be a complete lie.

I went outside the terminal and watched her queue for boarding, still reluctant to leave the airport. As the plane left the terminal after all passengers boarded and took onto the skies, I walked to my car, still not used to the fact that I am all alone. As I looked at the airport one last time, I drove off with the nostalgic feeling. I now know how it feels when people lose someone they love, forever. It’s a really sad feeling and it is at times like this, I wish I had all the money in the world and almost everything would be virtually possible.

As I am writing this now, I am still feeling really blue and this is the only place I can voice it out. Alas, I am going to retire from the online world for now and get some fresh air to make myself feel better. Take care peepz! Till then, cheers!