Alvin’s Weblog

12.22 A.M., 1 August 2005

Oh dear, I have been back for exactly 2 weeks now and in a way, it feels good. One thing though, I feel like I am missing something. I just can’t seem to explain why. Perhaps it is due to the change in environment and also in life? Perhaps the provoking thought of having to leave my study life and move on to the adult working world is making me feel that way? Perhaps it is due to the change in the people that I interact with? I don’t know. All I know is I am in a mess now. I sometimes wake up not knowing what to do and not knowing what I am thinking and feeling. I sometimes feel down for no apparent reason and later feel much better. Weird. Damn, this isn’t doing me and my health any good!

Anyway, being back home, yea, I get to drive my car and I get to eat all the stuffs I had always wanted to enjoy when I was in Australia. I get all the facilities that I don’t get in Australia. I get to be with my family and all but it still feels weird. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy the companionship of my family and all but I just feel like I am lacking somethings in my life and I am still trying to find out what they are.

Even the people back home are different. Now that I have been in Australia for the past 1 year, I have sort of gotten used to the culture over there and I sometimes dislike the way people act, back in my hometown. Despite it all, no doubt that we have more variety of people here and that is a huge advantage to me, if you get what I mean! LOL.

Anyway, being back home is great and all but sometimes it just feels different knowing that you are home for good. The thought of leaving your friends behind and also the thought of not being able to go back to Australia makes it a really sad case. Of course if I have the cash, then it’d be a whole different story but unfortunately, I don’t.

Anyway, all that being said, I would like to wish all my friends out there all the best of luck in their future undertakings and do know that I will always be there to support you guys in whatever you do, where ever I am. Good luck and all the best, mates!